“It’s so hard being creative,” He says in a drawling whine.
He’s probably a few years younger than I am, and has his palms pressed against
his temples, anguished, right here in this overcrowded coffee shop. I consider
him for a moment, his blue eyes, and decide that he’s probably
writing some stupid, angry-young-man drivel. I base this assessment on the
single shot of espresso he’s been choking down for the last thirty minutes, and
the smirk that accompanies his writer’s block.
“It’s supposed to be,” I say, hoping that he doesn’t hear
the same Tom Hanks “A League of Their Own” quote that I do as the words leave
my mouth. But as this is LA, he is twenty-something, and I am the pretentious
girl sitting beside him with an Orangina, he is gracious. He smiles, then
returns to his angst.
I feel bad about judging him, and for being the kind of
person that I keep saying this town is full of. It’s getting late and nearing
my bedtime, so I pack up my own days writing and head home. When I arrive,
there is cat shit in my bathtub.
This has been going on since November, the poop in the tub.
At first, I blamed the stress of the holidays. Who doesn’t wig out a little?
With the extra bustle, excesses of food, the traffic of company coming and
going, these kinds of things are expected. But this is February, and the line
between holiday indulgences and just being a pig is starting to blur. Ike
disagrees. At this point, only one of us is impressed with the notion of poop
in the toilet, and is acting accordingly.
The Toilet Trained Cat book says that this kind of thing is
to be expected, and not to worry. It’s only a sign that perhaps training is
moving too rapidly, or that some external stressors are inhibiting the learning
process. Shit in the tub, as they say,
happens.
So for the last couple of months, in a desert climate, I’ve
been living with an inch of water in my bathtub. This is effective in
redirecting Ike’s target location, but not her enthusiasm. She whines and sulks
around the apartment. I avoid her at these times, knowing that she is prone to angry
outbursts, usually at my expense. She generally prefers something carnal, like
slashing at my arms or clutching my wrists between her paws and biting until
she draws blood. The book suggests lots of encouragement, and plenty of
well-timed rewards and praise until the kitty is feeling more secure about the
toilet. I give, and Ike is eager to remind me of all the ways I have failed
her. She cries. In familiar drawling tones, she despairs over the inch of water
in the tub.
“Don’t start,” I tell her when she begins to succumb to the
throes of anguish.
Last Thursday, at one in the morning, my brother left for Taiwan with his
girlfriend. I do not feel bad about judging her. They will be there for a year,
and despite the stress this causes me, I haven’t yet slipped up and gone number
two in the tub. Here is a list of things that can happen to a person in Taiwan that can not happen to them in Seattle:
- Typhus.
- Accidentally eating dog.
- Typhoon.
- Eathquake.
- Direct Chinese hostilities.
- Losing touch with one’s family due to a 12-hour time difference.
- Poor enforcement of the rights of pedestrians.
- Unwittingly wandering into a sex-trade ring.
- Exotic toe fungus.
- Discovery that homes, cars, sisters, cats, and microwaves can be left behind.
- Vespa wasps.
When he and my family flew into France to meet me after my study
abroad school term had finished, his catchphrase was: “this country blows.”
After asking him how he liked London,
he said that the effort of getting there was a lot of work for a couple platters
of soggy fish and a two-hour Jack the Ripper tour. He doesn’t like to travel.
I’m his sister, I know this. Why The Girlfriend thinks she knows better is,
well, because, as she is quick to point out, she knows better than me on a
great many topics, my own family not excluded. The guy who once outlined a proposal
for the right to chloroform noisy children in public spaces will now be
teaching English to the schoolchildren of Taiwan. He’s not even a fan of boba
tea.
The worst part is that despite myself, despite how selfishly
I want to keep my brother for myself, I am proud of him. I am proud of him for
taking a risk that will challenge him, all Lassieburgers aside. The whole thing
would be so much easier, for one of us, anyway, if he were more worried. If I
could tell him something like, “You’ll be fine. Just steer clear of the
unadvertised massage parlors with no windows. You can call me when you get to
your apartment,” then I would know how to navigate this. But I don’t think he
needs to call me, and the massage parlors are pretty easy to identify. So I
check my email four or five times a day waiting for the latest updates: We’ve
landed in Taipei.
We’ve found a hotel. The “IBF” (“Idle Bag Formation,” conceived in France to
prevent pickpocketing and theft of luggage) remains as effective as ever. I
think that by the time I go to bed at night, he will be waking up in the
morning. I worry for him, and then I don’t. I think of The Girlfriend getting
explosive diarrhea, and I turn in the direction of the kid with the blue eyes
at the coffee shop and try to peek at the screen of his laptop to make sure his
lines are as derivative and banal as I expect them to be, and then I take
another swig of Orangina. What I do not do, is go home and poop in my
bathtub.